Thursday, April 7, 2022

To my sunny boy!

 

As my thoughts flow on your parting for your masters, just felt like penning my thoughts so that I will remain sane. Not sure whether I will give this to you or not. You know very well that I am not good at words and am sorry for being too ordinary.

 

Time just flies – my tiny little new-born who looked at me with annoyance, given a purpose to my life, taught me what possessiveness is, turned my life into a roller coaster for the last 22 years and is now all ready to go and conquer the world on his own. Frankly, I never wanted you to grow old, and am sure can never accept that you are an adult. In my eyes, you are and will be my little one with a twinkle in his eyes. Can never forget the day you were born, the tiny little one who was annoyed with me and annoyed me always. Life is never going to be the same without you nagging me always and vice-versa!

 

Letting you go without me for the first time - crying after sending you to your nani’s house without me and trying to get used to it slowly

 

I still remember the first day when we took you FKS, the shocked and confused toddler, oblivious to what’s happening around – running to find and hug me in Srinagar Colony. The innocent little one in Raju bhaiya’s van with a puzzled face, who we used to follow on bike whenever the paths crossed. The PTMs 😊 - from telling proudly that I don’t need to see teachers to going to school in tears to talk about you, me complaining to Shailaja aunty and Poornima aunty and them assuring me that everything will be alright.

 

Your first emceeing in the school – feeling so relieved that you will do fine in public space – to feeling proud of your college emceeing days 

 

Your high-school – I cherished each moment of it - the teenager who would be upset with me for no reason – the TV time / mobile time fights – all excited to take a few calls on the landline, especially girls 😊 will not name them though

 

The under-grad who doesn’t want me to know anything he does – from mobile calls to pictures to events – you trying to hide from me and me trying to safeguard till you grow up.. Wasn’t it crazy 😉

 

From Gitam to Cornell, you know it has been a great leap - don’t forget, this is just the beginning. Take each day as it comes and work hard at reaching the highest level. Aim to be the best in whatever you do.

 

Never forget your underlying value system,

 

Am not sure what all I am writing, as usual you will end up being annoyed if you see this, I guess 😉.

 

Wanted to tell you that both your dad and I are very proud of you – not because of Cornell, for the fact that you are turning out to be a fine human being.  Now that you are grown up and set to take charge of your life, wanted to tell you that you are one of the best human beings in the world!

 

Make sure you have more dreams than memories, more opportunities than chances, more hard work than luck and more friends than acquaintances! Let the creative side of you add more colour to your life 😉

 

You’ll have to make decisions that will have a bearing on where you will reach in your life and how you lead your life. Needless to say - the quality of what you choose is what you end up with – as you sow so shall you reap. Of course, we have your back and will always be there for you whenever you need us, even if you don’t need us 😊 😉.

 

As always, I long to spend time with you and still feel bad for not being able to give you enough time. I wish, we will be able to make up for this in the future. I know the chances are very bleak as you must give your best in whatever you do – tables turn, right!